i actually had a really good talk with one of my friends today after tennis.
and while things aren't cleared up...it does no good for me to worry, right?
i'll just take things as they go and keep going on.

i'm not sure if you guys have read/seen this already, but if you can ever get your hands on the Last Lecture by Randy Pausch, i'd really recommend reading it.
the actual lecture's on youtube under Carnegie Mellon's account [nice school...wouldn't mind going there P:] and overall, it's just very uplifting.

i think the phrase that's driving me on at the moment is this--
"bricks walls aren't there to stop you. they're there to show how badly you want something."

so, i'm going to start, or continue what i have already started.
despite the failures i've faced this year, i'll be that much better.

oh and slumdog millionaire is good. i finally got to see it and it was really good.
the soundtrack is also wonderful, i'd suggest looking up on youtube.

...time for work.